The Girl, The Gift, The Heaven

Hello! Hello! It's so nice to virtually meet you! It is my greatest honor to speak to you today as I explain who I am, what Mindful Meditations is, and how we can create heaven on Earth together. Let's dive in!

First up...

The Girl

Who am I? Or perhaps the better question is, Who was I?

It all started with the family who chose me and how our souls intertwined. When I was born, I was adopted and raised in the suburbs where I had loving friends, a house nestled in nature, a safe community, and two loving parents.

Everything was flawless until 2006, when my dad passed away of a heart attack. Ever since then, my family of three became a team of two, and my mom and I decided to study up on the meaning of spirituality and spiritual beliefs. Family member after family member continued to pass, and nothing was truly healing our sorrow. Nothing was healing those late night tears. 

Fast forward to 2008, I was 11 years old, and my aunt read my cards for the very first time. The deck she used was my mom's first deck she ever bought, which is the very deck I use today. 

My very first reading was the most beautiful experience I've ever had.

I instantly fell in love with how the definitions of each card lined up with my thoughts, emotions, and experiences. They were speaking to me. I was in awe. Everything about my reading felt meant to be. It was laced with love and guidance from the highest level of wisdom. My 11 year old self thought it was the coolest thing in the world - and I still do to this day.

As time went on, my mom and I joined our first yoga class together when I was in middle school. 

It was a class of women who met at the high school every Thursday. Six years later during my senior year of high school, my English class read a book called Siddhartha. After reading this book, I don't know what came over me, but my shy self asked the teacher if I could lead the class in a meditation. 

Before I knew it I was standing in front of the class, guiding my classmates through a mini body scan meditation, and the feedback I got afterwards was life-changingly positive and supportive.

After these pivotal moments in my teenage years, I went on to college, met new friends, and instantly became "the spiritual friend". I asked everyone and anyone if they wanted their cards read, or if they were willing to "get deep" in our conversations.

I studied up on the inner workings of the universe, quantum physics, astrology, energy, mindfulness, different meditation techniques, reiki, and intentional movement practices like yoga and qi gong. 

These teachings slowly became who I was, what I was most passionate about, and I was proud of it. I began to attract friends who shared the same interests as me, and who were more advanced. Every time we would hang out, they would share more and more of their wisdom with me. 

Overtime, the spiritual friends I attracted started introducing me to spiritual leaders and teachers, and I took advantage of every opportunity to learn from them and study with them.

Now, in my mid-twenties, I still learn from the very teachers I was introduced to. In fact, I wouldn't be where I'm at today without them. 

Soon after my advanced classes, I decided to get certified. 

I became a certified mindfulness life coach, took many courses on psychic development, and became a certified meditation practitioner. I sat through hundreds of lectures, took pages upon pages of notes, listened to educational videos night and day, until finally I asked myself, "If I could do anything with my life, what would it be?", and my answer was THIS.

The Gift

Now for the other half of my story... the challenges.

Throughout my spiritual journey, I've seen many things. Many. Uncomfortable. Unsettling. Heartbreaking things - in others and in myself. After my dad's passing, I had to grow up fast, and with this came a lot of trail and error. 

Not only was I healing from the trauma of death, but I was also healing waves of depression, anxiety, and fear. 

Fear of being abandoned, fear that I didn't belong, anxiety that I had to be perfect in order to be accepted, fear that I couldn't do it, even fear of the unknown. I struggled with insecurities, social anxiety, imposter syndrome, identity crisis... I was a victim of burnout, constantly feeling overwhelmed. I was aggressive, argumentative, easily triggered. I stayed in toxic relationships, I got fired from my job, I got kicked out, I went to jail (for speeding, whoops!). I struggled with feeling like a failure, wanting to give up, being envious of others, and even living in denial - thinking "I don't have to change, they have to change. This has to change. The world has to change." I got comfortable playing the victim.

Yes, I was gradually stepping more and more into the spiritual world, but with more and more spiritual development, came more and more self reflection. 

I struggled with addiction, being broke, putting the needs of others before my own, overpromising, procrastinating, people pleasing. You get the point - life was messy.

I share this all with you now to reassure you that no matter what you're feeling, no matter what you're going through, no matter what you have felt, or have done... none of that defines who you are in the present moment. 

I'm here to be a physical reminder that

You can grow through pain, you can grow through challenges, and you can create harmony out of chaos, regardless of it being internal or external chaos. You can grow into the person you want to be no matter where you are in life or your environment. No matter your thoughts. No matter your emotions. No matter your current behaviors. You. Can. Grow.

All you have to do is put in the work. You have to have a vision for yourself - a light at the end of your tunnel - and when you have that light, no matter how small it is, you just have to keep moving towards it.

All of my struggles, all of my challenges - were gifts. 

They made me the person I am today and I am so grateful for every hardship I've ever had. They were beautiful. They were brutal, but they were beautiful. 

I stand in front of you today, so far away from the person I used to be.

When I tell people my story they say, "I can't see that at all." And honestly, neither can I anymore. 

I truly left my old behavioral patterns behind.

I transformed who I was as a person day after day through mindfulness, meditation, and being intentional with how I treat my body, and how I treat others; and now, I'm going to teach you how you can do the same.

I teach others how they can move away from the energy that no longer serves them, and step into the energy that does. I teach people how to radiate the energy they want to feel and attract, and I help people see the areas in their lives they wish to change. I help people cope with challenges. I provide guidance when they decide to change their lives... the same guidance that was given to me from my teachers and friends. 

When I meet new people, I accept them for who they are and where they are.

I cast out all judgment and welcome them in with love, understanding and acceptance - the same way my teachers and friends did for me. Together, we write a new destiny for yourself. We create a new reality. A new version of yourself that you are absolutely in love with. 

We trade in what you no longer want, and welcome the thoughts, emotions, and behaviors that you do want to create the lifestyle you want.

I've done this for countless people along my journey, and now I would like to answer the question, "Why is doing this together so important?".

The Heaven

Just like a flower, we all need additional help to grow. 

We need an environment that nurtures us. We need the stormy weather and the hard times to make us want to change. We need the roots and a solid foundation to be strong. And we need the light in order to push through it all and as we strive for better and brighter days.

Growth is not easy, but it's easier when you have support.

That's why I'm here. I'm here to pay it forward. I'm here to help push you forward. I guide you as you move away from the ickiness of the past, and help you realize that the present is your most valuable tool. I'm here to bring light to your present moment, so that you can create and enjoy a more fulfilling future.

Like I said before, I consider every hardship to be a gift. 

I was broken so that I could learn what it feels like to not have resources readily available to me. I battled with confusion to learn what it feels like to be lost. I went through bad breakups and death to learn what it feels like to be heartbroken and defeated.

Feeling these things doesn't mean you're broken, lost, or incapable, it means changes are about to occur, and it's your job to make sure you are changing for the better.

 I felt all of these things and healed them so that I may understand and help you heal. I've felt fear to help you when you're fearful. I've felt anger to help you when you're frustrated. I've felt physically and emotionally exhausted so that I could... well you get the idea.

I get it! I understand! I lived it too!

And even though it took me years to heal and learn all of these things, it has been proven to me time and time again that with the right community, your healing process can be sped up exponentially.

When you're being supported, your transformational journey happens rapidly. When you're being taught from experienced leaders who have lived through what you're going through, your mind expands vastly, and your heart settles because you realize that you're not alone in anything.

Love speeds up growth. 

So I'm here to love you. I'm here to support you. And I'm here to help you create your heaven on Earth. 

I was lucky enough to have people in my life who said, "You don't have to go through this alone. I'm right by your side." I had people who helped me look at myself in the mirror, and helped me make changes that have impacted the rest of my life in the most positive way. They were patient with me. They were lovingly real with me. I give credit where credit is due and I humbly say that all of this wouldn't be possible if it wasn't for the community I had. I believe the souls I've met along my journey came into my life for a reason. And I believe I have come into your life for a reason as well.

This is my life's purpose - not only to help - but to radiate this energy. My energy.

To fully step into who I am, and this is who I am. So here I am, ready and willing to I teach you everything I've ever learned. Ready to share with you every hurtle I've ever jumped over. Ready and excited to support you as you move through and make healthy changes to your beautiful life. Mindful Meditations is my heaven on Earth, and I would love nothing more than to share it with you.

So kind soul, let's begin. Together.